I am struggling. I had such hopes for this blog. I wanted people to start reading the Bible who never have before:
- Those who didn’t have time.
- Those who get bored in the Old Testament.
- Those who don’t understand how the books of prophecy related to the events.
- Those who don’t think the Bible is relevant today.
- Those with questions whose answers are in the Bible.
- Those who just started this “Faith Walk” with Jesus.
Each day I share something I learned. Or how a verse directed me. Or how the verse related to an event in my day.
Some days, God corrects me. Some verses are too personal to share publicly. I won’t share them just like I don’t write about my love life. It’s intimate and just for me. I hope you understand the missing days.
I keep thinking I’m doing something wrong. So, I take another “blogging course.” They usually depress me. I’m called to write without ads and affiliate marketing. That is how bloggers make their money.
Saturday, I started yet another course. After the first lesson, I was ready to quit altogether! I went to the WordPress Reader and typed in “Faith-Based Writers.” I found “Living Our Days,” at michelemorin.wordpress.com.
“I’m tempted to be still, to shut down, and to believe the lie that my words don’t matter – that, I am, somehow, unqualified.” “Driven by Fear to the God Who Casts Out Fear,” Michele Morin
I’m not the only one who struggles! Clarity came when I read the introduction to 1 Samuel on Sunday.
“…our ego-bound experience is too small a context in which to understand and experience what it means to believe in God and follow His ways.” The Message Introduction to 1 Samuel
I started reading about Hannah. Her husband had two wives. Her rival wife had children. Hannah was barren. Her rival wife was a bully who taunted her. I love how Hannah reacted.
1 Samuel 1:9-10, “So Hannah ate. Then she pulled herself together, slipped away quietly, and entered the sanctuary. …(10) Crushed in soul, Hannah prayed to God and cried and cried – inconsolably.” The Message
I ate breakfast, pulled myself together, and went to church. While there I visited with a sister in a more depressing situation than mine.
The pain was crushing her, and like Hannah, she cried and cried. That put things with my blog in perspective. Even more amazing? She is the sister I looked for to pray for me! She did! She prayed against discouragement and depression. Even in her brokenness, she gave to ease my hurt. I prayed for her situation, too.
Neither one of us can see the big picture of what God is doing for us. We both know He has a plan and is working in the background. But waiting is sometimes downright painful. We want God to fix it now!
“I’ve been stepping into my prayer closet and asking God to save the day, Superman-style, to provide the quick fix, the happy here-and-now. But God looks at the long-term, what’s best for eternity. An easy life produces flabby souls. Temporary trouble can be a stepping stone to godly character.” “Praying Like a Super Hero,” Shirlee Abbott, at Proverbs 31 Ministries
So, I keep going. This is post number 3755. There are 661 posts over at frugalfish.org. I meant to celebrate when I wrote my 4,000th post. That was sometime in 2017. (Oops.) I’ll celebrate my 4,000th post here.
How should I celebrate?
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3 thoughts on “She Pulled Herself Together”
It does my heart good to read these words.
Thank you for the invitation into your own special writing space!
I’m sorry my first visit to your blog was on a bad day. I don’t normally whine. lol
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