I have been frustrated with the weight gain from the last round of steroids. Then I remembered eight years ago…I was on steroids almost constantly, and it was about this time that I went into the largest size of my life.
All summer long my condition worsened. Finally, in August, I was told there was nothing more they could do. To make matter worse, I had reached the “ceiling” on steroids. They had to wean me off and keep me off as long as possible. They told me all I could do was avoid allergens. Yeah, right.
As the steroids wore off, the hives went ballistic. I had hives forming on top of hives on my face. I moved the keyboard to the edge of the overhead screen to hide behind the screen when I played on Sunday mornings. Finally, I stopped playing all together.
Then my fingers started cracking open. When the crack got deep enough, I could no longer bend them and they were useless. By Labor Day, I had only two fingers that would bend on one hand and three on the other. The hives on my face were not just embarrassing, they were painful. It felt like my face was sunburned or on fire.
My boss agreed to let me move my office home and work from there. I stayed in the house, not even going into the attached garage, for 87 days and waited. But God honors those who wait as we see in today’s verse.
Isaiah 40:31, “But those who wait for the Lord [who expect, look for, and hope in Him] shall change and renew their strength and power; they shall lift their wings and mount up [close to God] as eagles [mount up to the sun]; they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint or become tired.”
Slowly, I healed. After the killing frost, I moved my office back to the church and the hives returned. The next fall, I moved the office home again and in the fall of 2006, I moved it home permanently.
My condition continued to deteriorate and by the fall of 2007, I was only leaving the house for church on Sunday mornings. God told me that July, that my time working there was almost over. I closed the year and printed the W2’s on New Year’s Eve and stepped down from my job of 24 years.
After 8 years of waiting, I would love to tell you I am healed…but I’m not; each year I got worse. Last year I set a new record of 104 consecutive days in the house. Each year they had to increase the amount of steroids I have to take to leave the house for any reason.
But I have never been happier! Each day, when I go to bed, I thank God that I do not have to leave the house. I am grateful because by staying in this highly protective environment, my skin is perfect; before I had a rash somewhere on my body every day since I was 3 months old. My asthma is totally under control and I no longer spend my days sneezing, wheezing and hacking. The only thing I battle now is sinus headaches triggered by a change in the barometric pressure when a storm blows through. When that happens, I can heat up my sinus mask and go to bed until the storm passes over. Before the only way to cope with the headache was to play Spider Solitaire because it distracted me from the pain.
If all of this had not happened I never would have finished the “Relevant Bible Reading Guide”, or started this website, or wrote the “Babysteps Bible Reading Guide”, or started the Frugalfish.org blog or the firstname.lastname@example.org blog.
I have 37 outlines of posts for Frugalfish.org. I based the Relevant Bible Reading Guide on the number of verses in a chapter; but soon the Bible Reading Guide will be based on the number of words in a chapter. I want to add a feature with verses you can use to help the grieving, sick and those who are praying for a family member who is drifting away from God.
If I have to stay in my house for the rest of my life, I know I will not be bored; I will be busy! I have experienced the “change and renewal of my strength” the verse talks about. When I write, I become energized, not weary, and faint or tired. Yes, there are rewards for those who wait.
What verse impressed you?